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05:07 am: My Song, Hug-Therapy, and a kickass artist
1. The song I'll be singing on Saturday at a concert with 14 idiots, counting me and my voice coach/friend:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fgDT-V4-2CQ
'Course, this is Montserrat Caballe singing, not me!!!! hee.
2. Hug Therapy. This is one more reason for me to feel vindicated.
3. Totally jealous of Salma el Tarzi, a wonderful painter on Facebook, who is upper-middle-class just like me but, unlike me, volunteered at OpAntiSH, the anti-sexual-harassment coalition to which many of my friends are donating their effort and time, and was molested at one of the demonstrations. Here's her most famous painting, Facebook-locked but reprinted elsewhere:circle of hell
and my personal favourite:
salmaflower
which is interesting because the first thing I thought was OMG THIS IS A PORTRAIT OF ME, only to find that every woman who'd seen it felt it was a portrait of her. To which my responses were, in order:
a) YOU'RE KIDDING! SHE EVEN HAS HAIR LIKE MINE AND THIGHS LIKE MINE! IT'S SOOOOO ME.
b) I AM NOT SPECIAL. (Which, duh, but it's the diva-fever wanting to be DIFFERENT from everyone else...)
c) GOD I WISH I COULD DO SOMETHING THAT EVERYONE WOULD SEE THEMSELVES IN. (the perennial wish of the artist)
d) I COULD HAVE PAINTED LIKE HER BUT I CAN'T and who the fuck cares and why are you even alive and Salma's middle-class and fat just like you but SHE joined the protectors and sundry similar crap that you do not deserve to be troubled with.
Anyway. Everyone's urging her to exhibit, but she's all Facebook so far. If she does, you can bet the orchid painting will be in my home... But she'd probably just gift it to someone deserving. Actually, not sure I do want it in my home. It's wonderful and uplifting, but would be a constant reminder of what I could have achieved but didn't. Some of her work looks a lot like the doodles I've done for years on every surface when I'm not on the computer - only (a)those are stereotyped models of skinny feminine perfection, and (b)I know zilch about perspective and such, and (c)it's all moot now because I wouldn't want to be typed as an imitator of her anyway.

Thus endeth the post for a while.


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From:rainb0betty
Date:April 5th, 2013 04:08 am (UTC)

hug therapy FTW!

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"would be a constant reminder of what I could have achieved but didn't."

Can I just tell you this is the primary reason I have no art in my house? Because it mocks me. It calls me out on my laziness and lack of motivation to do anything beautiful. So I have bare walls and an unpleasant disposition. Excellent.

Best of luck Saturday! :-D
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From:ljs
Date:April 5th, 2013 02:39 pm (UTC)
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All good thoughts for your singing! :)
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From:heron_pose
Date:April 6th, 2013 01:53 pm (UTC)
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You are alive to sing and have fun and be beautiful and write and teach and translate and make films and do all those things that you do so well you can't even decide between them.

Dummy.

But yes, going to live music used to depress me, still does sometimes, because of the reminder that I don't do that. Sigh.

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