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01:06 am: Why Would Having No Problems Cause Me To Feel *Upset*?
So, I just spent a day with a silly, borderline-Asperger's friend who emotionally manipulated me, remembered another friend who decided he'd had enough of me and ran away screaming, and had a huge blowup fight with a third friend who's so depressed and financially strapped she's considering selling her organs, and she begged me not to give her the Your Health lecture and I did anyway and she SCREAMED and cursed and---

And well, the producer who said they might help with the independent movie turned out to be full of shit, but I'm not giving up and will try to sell said producer on a TV program that will help out the friend who wanted to sell her bits'n'bobs. And met a very emotionally draining lady in hopes of getting a grant. And got home feeling I'd been through a meat grinder.

AND NONE OF MY PROBLEMS IS REAL. My friend is still my friend. My money issues don't exist because I have a dad who gives me cash. My movie issues are non-existent because I can just - poof! - opt out of making the movie. Wouldn't even be a great loss.

More to the point, I happened to call up another friend in the evening, and she told me of a *real* problem she had - she'd just found out her 9-year-old son was depressed. And I actually had the nerve to waste her time wailing about my stupid friends!

I guess I need to define 'problems'. To me, real problems are the following:

  • Money issues.

  • Children.

  • Someone dying.

  • Breakup or divorce.

  • Someone (or you) being ill.

In other words, 'my friend is depressed' doesn't count. If your SPOUSE is depressed, then OK.

And so - the eternal question remains - WHY DO I FEEL DISAPPOINTED WHEN MY PROBLEMS AREN'T REAL?
The closest answer I've been able to find is this: IF I FEEL SO DRAINED NOW WITH NO PROBLEMS, WHAT WILL I DO WHEN MY MOM, WHO'S MY BFFOREVER AND EVER, DIES? WHAT WILL I DO WHEN SOMEONE IS IN THE HOSPITAL?

And then I thank God I never had kids, because, who needs a mom who defines 'suffering' as ---
Hold on, what day is it?
Hmm. Monday. Meds due Wednesday.


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From:leviathan0999
Date:March 12th, 2013 01:48 am (UTC)
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"I have a problem."

"What's your problem?"

"I have no problem."

"I thought you said you have a problem."

"I do."

"What is it?"

"I have no problem."

"That's not what you just said."

"What do you mean?"

"You just said you have a problem."

"That's right."

"So, what is the problem that you have?"

"I have no problem."

"So you're fine then."

"No, I'm not fine, you insensitive clod!"

"What's wrong?"

"I have no problem."

"So... That's good then....?"
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From:sarahenany
Date:March 12th, 2013 12:08 pm (UTC)

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EEEEEEEE.
Laughter really is the best medicine. Thank you!!!
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